HealthyHabits

It’s been a while, but the first thing I noticed is the counter has racked up over 10K lbs since last logging on. You folks are doing fantatic. So here’s a shout-out to you! GREAT JOB EVERYONE!!! I’ll be checking in often, and hope to share with you my successes, failures (although not too many) and struggles - and to get your loving support. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I want to do it, but then don’t really try very hard. It’s just easier to do the same old thing, especially when making dinner for my very hungry, not at all overweight husband. Changing lifestyles is hard. I thought Curves would motivate me to move, but it was so boring. Then I joined WW, and started counting points - for a few days anyway. I still pay the fee, and go to a meeting every now and then, but really I’m so depressed about my 100lb weight gain over the past 5 years I’m about to just do myself in. i know that sounds rather harsh, but when I was 156 I thought I was huge. Now at over 200 I know how slim I was back then. If only I could stop beating myself up about the gain and start doing something about it. Talk about low self esteem, and this coming from a grandma of three wonderful youngsters, and a great job - so it gets boring too sometimes,,,what doesn’t. It’s the depression that’s got me this time, and the more I try the more I fail and the worse the depression gets. HELP!!! Please. I’m praying with all my heart for God to help me out of this, and I know I won’t be forsaken, just shown a road that I’ve not yet decided to take - for some stupid reason I’ve decided not to take it. I know how good I feel when I am doing something to help myself. I know it - so what’s the problem with my brain?

I’ve been absent, but glad to report that not out of the game - well, maybe just a little. I finally broke down and joined WW. Today is weigh in “tell it all” day. Sorry to report that the results won’t be positive, but at least I’m owning it. Tomorrow will be a better day - and next week will be positive results. Missed you all - you really did help to support. I just didn’t know how much until now. Have a spectacular weekend. Nice to see the pounds counter rising. Almost to 20k - what a great accomplishment for all of you!

I slave and slave and where is the love? Keep up the house, cook, clean, garden, mow, work, shop. I do it all - I’m so worn out. Today I figured out one of my triggers. I was so PO’d at my husband. He works hard, don’t get me wrong - I love the jerk, but sometimes he hasn’t got a freakin’ clue. I’m tired of picking up all the slack, and get no love in return. Yep - having a pity party tonight! Since having my little tantrum I realized that I’m very lonely - need him to THINK once in a while, and tired of feeling like the only one around here that cares if this place falls down around us or not. Aren’t most men clueless? They think as long as the woman doesn’t rant, rave and bit*#&, that everything is just hunky-dory! Well, today I ranted, calmly - but still…peeevvvved me off.

Thanks for listening

Although joining Curves is a positive thing to do for oneself, it still doesn’t mean YOU WANT to go does it. Keeping the commitment means getting yourself there too. Keeping a commitment to oneself is more important than making that promise to another. So wish my sore, tired body - and my sluggish mind - good luck in keeping my promise….I’m going to need that luck to get through this whole exercise thing

Cheers! Le

I thought someone at work had keyed my car, then I had a friend look at it with me - she thought someone tried to squeeze through with a bag that had a zipper and scratched it. I’m releived because I didn’t want to think someone could hate me that much. It’s a pretty bad scratch. And hubby said he would take care of it for me getting it repaired….so sometimes things aren’t always as bad as they first appear!

I need to vent. My Daughter is with this guy - total loser, won’t work, goes out all the time without her leaving her at home with the kids. I’ve been buyer her groceries because of the grandkids, three of them ages from 8 to One years.

Yesterday she called needing a perscription filled for the one year old. I filled it and all the way home wondering what I can do ,or say that would open her eyes. My husband doesn’t know I buyer her groceries as often as I do, but he’ll soon find out when it shows on our report. I’m not worried about what he will think or say, because he would rather pay for some food than have them all move in with us.

I just want her to open her eyes, go to work herself and get on her own two feet. She is a very bright girl, with medical assistance training. She doesn’t want to leave the baby with a sitter, but who does. The baby is totally spoiled rotten - screams all the time when she doesn’t get her way. It would be good for her to be with other kids.

Thanks for letting me vent. It’s tough seeing your kids struggle, try to stay out of their business, but she sucks me in all the time. I’m getting tired of the same old story. Push is going to come to shove between her and her boyfriend - just wish it would be sooner rather than 10 years down the road. It’s like she is addicted to him, and she will tell you that herself. She’s tried breaking up with him several times which lasts only a week or two. Then back together and with the same old story. What’s a grandmother/mother to do???

Has anyone tried the BEAN? It’s a blowup fitness exquipment. Wondering if anyone has any experience or success with it.

I joined Curves yesterday, for their 21 day fitness trial. It’s really a promotional gimick to gain new members, but for 20 bucks which is refundable, I thought it worth a try. Had my first 30 minute workout yesterday and expect to be sore later on today. My muscles are not used to this, but my mind is ready to lose some inches. Wish me luck!

I must be cause I’m down one more pound, and a few ounces but they don’t count until it’s a full 16. I swear when I try try try nothing works. When I try doing the best I can, keep a good attitude and stay aware of my behavior (eating that is…) the pound just goes away down the drain, into an ab-bis. Working 10 to 12 hours a day, and taking my food with me to work helps too. Not depriving myself of chocolate, because I cannot live without it, is also helping. I eat 1 point Healthy Choice fudge bars for my fix, which are deliciously satisfying to me…and some days I eat two. Another thing is that I’m not obsessed with losing weight because I still love my body just the way it is. It is so enlightening to feel this way about myself. Get it in-lite-ning! With just 19 pounds off my body I walk easier, breath easier, climb stairs easier, play with my grandchildren on the floor without worrying I cannot get up without groaning as I do. My pants are no longer tight that I strip walking into my home. The bra comes off right away, but not the pants because I’m comfortable enough. I even walk a little taller, and brisker. I hope you all the same fantastic feelings I am enjoying…and believe me this hasn’t always been the case. Le